Time, Time, Time....Look what's become of me!

I have had one of those really bizarre experiences where my life resembles fiction at an alarming rate. I "discovered" a show with Keifer Sutherland called TOUCH - great show, I strongly recommended it -about how there are not really coincidences so much as patterns if we are open to seeing them... And then I got this song stuck in my head... Sadly, I just remembered The Bangles version but it's been done about a million times and it I just love the lyrics... Here is a link to the YouTube video if you want to sing along... LYRICS: Time, time, time, see what's become of me..... Time, time, time, see what's become of me. While I looked around for my possibilities, I was so hard to please. Look around, the leaves are brown, And the sky is a hazy shade of winter. Hear the salvation army band Down by the riverside, it's bound to be a better ride Than what you've got planned, Carry your cup in your hand. Look around you, the leaves are brown now, And the sky is a hazy shade of winter. Hang on to your hopes, my friend. That's an easy thing to say but if your hopes should pass away, It's simply pretend, that you can build them again. Look around, the grass is high, the fields are ripe, It's the springtime of my life. Oh, seasons change with the scenery, Weaving time in a tapestry, Won't you stop and remember me? Look around, the leaves are brown, And the sky is a hazy shade of winter. Look around, the leaves are brown, There's a patch of snow on the ground, Look around, the leaves are brown, There's a patch of snow on the ground, Look around, the leaves are brown, Anyone who knows what an Oregon summer starts like (it looks like fall out there!), knows this is a great summer song! LOL I haven't had the opportunity to blog in a really long time and I have kind of missed it. It's cathartic and so I am going to try and add it back in to the melee which is my life. I actually had someone ask me recently if I still do it. Don't want to let the fans down :-) so here you go... I have been keeping myself really busy but the biggest news on the "weightloss" front is that I have finally been released from physical therapy and have joined a gym to keep trying to get stronger. I love ironies -so how is this -I am not allowed any real "off road" hiking or walking around but I can go to the gym. The gym is how I got hooked on TOUCH, because the awesome gym I go to has WIFI -which means when I am pedaling the stationary bike to nowhere, I am watching my HuluPlus on my iPhone. I have watched the entire first season while either folding laundry or pedaling my heart out. I have moved on to 21 JUMP STREET - don't judge! I have decided that this summer will be a family focused summer, since I messed up last summer so bad -and so far, so good (now mind you, we are only two weeks in!). I have been trying to let the kids dictate a lot of what we do and trying to just keep busy (Last year at this time, I was flat on my back with my knee up-yipes!). And the gym - I am working really hard on trying to get to the gym at least three times a week. I gave up TOPS for the summer to try and not have a lot of "set" things so that I could rest, spend time with the kids and travel a little bit. So the gym plan is for me to gain strength and just be healthier. I am not really working that hard at losing weight but gaining muscle and strength. Best part? It's working! I have been going to the gym since May and have tightened my legs up, my arms are getting definition and I can feel my ribs -woohoo! Now, I am not losing tons of weight yet (only about 2 lbs) but I feel so much better, and really, that is so much more important to me than just losing the weight. Someone asked me if I was going to have a "tummy tuck" since I have lost all this weight and I have all this loose saggy skin. Would it be weird to say I am not excited by the concepts of major surgery on my abdomen? Plus, all that extra room makes the swelling from abdominal HAE attacks less painful... so not right now, folks! So, back to the TOUCH reference -all these things in my life seem to be connected in peripheral ways that I had not noticed before. I find myself sitting back and waiting instead of reacting more, to see how it comes out and allowing activities to play out before I intercede, which is helping my stress level immensely. Much like Jake, in TOUCH, I am not very effectual at communicating, at least not about myself. I think I am "talking" to people but they don't seem to understand me, so I have begun waiting more and seeing if it is to be -maybe more faith than force, I guess... But boy, make it about something I am passionate about OTHER than me, and I can scald you with the heat of my convictions. Boy, that is not a self esteem issue or anything, is it? Sheesh, that one is a huge red flag! LOL A few random ramblings.... I like when Facebook recommends I friend someone I don't particularly care for because we have friends in common -especially when I did not realize that the two "friends" know each other.... I have to admit that it is a bit of pressure to think, "Hmm, so and so likes this person, should I friend them?" Why is it that websites for groups that require annual membership have to be so cumbersome to re-enroll? Obviously if I am re-enrolling I am still involved and interested. I have not changed my birthdate, my gender or my racial profile. Sheesh, just re-enroll me already! My life is a series of Murphy's Law encounters. Example a) I just managed to get a very convoluted web of prior approvals and guidelines established with my health insurance company - when we changed insurance companies... I can't remember the last time I had french toast -but I know that it about 7 hours, I will be having it for breakfast and I cannot wait! What is the magic age children stop bickering? I am too old to remember and certainly too old to wait for my kids to stop. Duct tape is looking good... My ears would appreciate the break... Anyway -I should not blog when I haven't slept, I babble and think only of pot-stirrer topics.... I will be back again soon, I promise.